I don't know what to do. I woke up feeling really conflicted about what I should be doing in my life. Where I should be. I feel like the wonderful job I started a year ago is so not great a year later, because of all the changes that have occured in the last six months. But this begs the question, where do I go from here? Do I go & find another job here now, or, should I go out to BC & find another job there? What, other than my parents, do I have holding me here?
Maybe I'm kidding myself, thinking that everything would just fall into place if I were to move out to BC. I am well aware of the fact that there will be a period of adjustment, which is just common sense for pete's sake. I feel as though I'm at a crossroads of my life, & I'm just not sure what to do. Nobody can tell me what to do but me, this I know.
The more I think about all of this, the more questions that come up in my mind. As close as I am to my parents, would I be able to live away from them, away from the safety net of their care & comfort? Do I stay here & be sad because I miss my friend, & be in the same rut that I've always found myself in, or, do I go to BC, & be sad & wistful & a bit home sick for awhile, while getting my bearings to my new surroundings & eventually come to love my new surroundings?
Lately I'm finding I have more questions than answers. This sucks.