Lately, I've been finding myself out of sorts a bit...I'm finding that in some ways, I'm losing my way from time to time, getting frustrated about things on my mind, sometimes I'm finding that I don't even like myself occationally, because I've been such a complaining pain in the arse lately......
Day to day frustrations seem to be getting the better of me lately & I hate it. It's so maddening lately, because I genuinely want to be a happy well adjusted person, & for the most part I already am. I don't know why it is that sometimes you just go off the rails a bit......It's so stupid really......
I really wish I could erase & do over yesterday, because yesterday really sucked. I felt stretched so thin yesterday & I was in more of a dark headspace than I have been in a long time. I really want to try & be the best person I can be, but it feels like such a struggle sometimes. And so, I'm feeling like a constant self improvement project. And sometimes, I think I just need to get over myself as well..I'm also turning 40 very soon, & frankly, I need to just "grow up" too....
I sometimes think as well that it doesn't help that the weather has been so cold & I just hate winter. Winter is enough to make anybody feel miserable sometimes.....
I'm giving myself a gift. Today is a new day, it's going to be a better day, because I'm making up my mind to make it a better day. Because it has to be. I have to really, because otherwise, it's going to cost me dearly, & I really don't want to face "what could be".....So, today is a whole new day, & I can only hope that it'll be a vast improvement over yesterday.
On a final note............I have John Mayer to look forward to in April at the ACC in Toronto....Woo Hoo!
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you go girl. I am sure we all have dark days, I know I do.. but the great thing is, is that we can go to bed that night and wake up afresh ready to kick life in it's butt!
i think you're great
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