Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Contemplating 40

I attempted to start this post last night, but was at a bit of a loss for words about what to say....My 30's are rapidly winding down, & I'm on the verge of the next decade of my life...I'm wondering if it'll be more of the same or something entirely different....

I know that in my mind at least, I'm still in a "29 & holding" mindset....What & how are almost 40 year olds supposed to think & feel? I know that physically at times, especially in my knees, I'm feeling far older than I ought to be! My knees crick & crack more than a Chinese Christmas cracker! At 39, I've finally gotten into a steady full time job that for the most part, I do still love at this point, altho running the drapery department has been far more challenging than I anticipated, but this is only because it had been so badly neglected & abused, now that I'll be running it, it's been a huge undertaking to get it back to where it should have been all along....So, there's that.....

On the more personal side of my life, I'm still single, happy to be so for the most part, but there are times when it just sucks....I still sometimes get a sense that I'm not sure what I want out of this life....They don't give you a handbook to guide you on what life is supposed to be like if you're still single at this age, altho there's plenty of (somewhat) good advice out there....

Anyway, I have Australia to look forward to next year, when I turn 41...Woo Hoo, I'm finally gonna get there, & I can't wait! It's been a long time coming for this trip & barring the creepy crawlies that I'm sure will freak me out when I get there, it'll be an amazing time.....

2 comments:

EuroTrippen said...

I turn 39 this year too... and even with the husband, kids & all that, I still question every day if I'm where I should be in my life. I also do a lot of dwelling on the things I haven't accomplished yet. It's only natural to wonder what if. The trick is trying to live in the here & now and letting the future settle itself somewhere down the line.

Happy birthday!

Karen said...

age is only a number :) (so i keep telling myself) hehe x